dam it! guess that i need to go operation for my spine. ZZZZZ.. that totally suk dude. my consultant Dr. Victor Seah suggested me to go for an op, cos thats kind of like the only option for me now.. he told me that he can fix a date on 2april which is on monday.. i'm not totally prepared for it..
so i decided not to have the op for now probably in the near future or wad.. now i'm trying to find another alternative to cure which is accupunture.. just now i went to chong pang for accpunture.. first time went there and the physician told me he is able to cure me.. dunno if thats bullshit or wad? but well thats the only hope i can rely on... had close to 20 needles on me just now.. zzz. one word to describe, ITS FUCKING PAIN!
my dream have been dashed.. its been my dream to be a pilot.. i do not know if i'm able to fullfill it.. tears are rolling down my cheeks while i'm typing now.. seldom see boys cry yea? hais.. who can i seek help from? buddha? jesus? nah.. i'm free thinker.. probably my deceased grandma cos she's the one who took good care of me when i was young.
i just kinda lost hope in life.. everything seems to be pouring down on me..
will a miracle happen pls.. i really do need one.. =(
